gigafit

Wow. Another week gone.

I started doing abs again... still feeling pudgy. It's like when I went to California, all my excess fat collected there. Everything that I lost, I gained back double. My schedule's all messed up since I'm the only one home, and I started classes. I've been eating better than usual... grabbing snacks here and there, and making sandwiches for lunch. Better, but still not where I need to be.

I decided I don't want to be 17 again. But 19 or 20 wouldnt be so bad. Friends are trying to drag me along to Red Party this weekend (one is moving back home on Sunday) but all I can think about is how awful I felt the LAST time I went dancing with shirtless men.

Not good for the self esteem.

On another note, my right shoulder is still a (literal) pain. We've been taking things fairly easy, since the last 2 shoulder workouts have been painful, and I really dont want to injure it. But, it seems to be getting stronger.

Also, I'm wondering about the condition my father has, and if I have it too. Since I've put a lot of muscle on around my shoulders, I've been having some circulation problems in my arms when I sleep. I have a tendency to sleep with my arms above my head, and this seems to be pinching the blood vessels. Now, this sounds exactly like my dad's problem... an extra partial rib on each side at the top, narrowing the opening... and if muscles grow, then there's no room... Dad had his removed. Ouch.

We shall see.